she didn't have much in the way of belongings, packing was unpleasant
as trying to condense everything in the way of recollections, pleasures
and feelings of the last 24 hours into her compacted, heart-shaped
"suitcase" was challenging. She refused to leave anything behind,
filling empty gaps with emotional souvenirs and mementos she would later
cherish as her 'land-line' back to him.
came out of her room to find him waiting for her with a packed lunch,
once again gaining "points" and making it even harder to walk away.
Looking deep into each others eyes as they had when singing to each
other, they could see through to the deep-seated passion and pain,
wordlessly bonding their hearts. Making their desire for each other unbearable and on the verge of uncontrollable.
silently held each other close, not wanting "space" to once again come
between them but knowing at least at that moment, at this time in their
lives, they would have to let go. She had told herself not to cry, but her eyes didn't get the memo. Tears, like a river, carried
heartbreak and unspoken words downstream, down her face. Oh, how she
wished for that fairy tale magic wand that solves all of life's problems
with just a wave. She wanted to stay. She wanted it to be her new
life; the one she actually woke up to and went to bed to everyday and
night. The one that she had yearned for most of her life. She wanted him.
He too wanted her. When something wasn't working, his M.O. was to not stop until he "fixed it". This however, was something even as a mechanic he could not find the answer to through a book or computer or even through a seasoned expert. This was
something that would take meticulous consideration. This was their
hearts, something that had never been broken into so many interchangeable pieces making it hard to separate the two. This
was love, something never covered in his training.
took her hand leading her to the door. The same door that she had felt
unease approaching just 24 hours ago, was now a place she dreaded leaving. Going down
the steps, her
words of self-encouragement were now for her hopeful return someday and to console the tears on the brink of cresting. It was hard to say goodbye wanting to keep the other as their own personal, human, hand-held devise. He
firmly but lovingly embraced her for the last time, placing his lips
over hers, and like with their first "cyber kiss", every vital sign in her body testified he was real!
She drove away
looking in her rear-view mirror wondering why or how she had ever felt unease and
apprehension, as this had turned out to be the best "space" she had evverr been in!