Ma'am....

"Ma'am"....

DEF: (Ma'am is used as a title of respect, especially when addressing female royalty)

Considering I was at Home Depot.....I wasn't especially feeling like royalty, but that's what he said.

"Excuse me, ma'am."  

I looked up expectedly waiting for him to say, "Umm, those light bulbs you are buying are energy-depleting" or, "You have a piece of toilet paper stuck to the bottom of your shoe."

But he didn't say either.

He said, "That is a beautiful dress."

My immediate, impulsively, reactive, reaction was to say, "Oohhhhwww, Cannn I takke youu homme?"  

But instead I opted for a big sheepish smile and the more royal civility of, "Thankkk Youuu!" 

Who needs light-bulbs after that?! Way to light up my day!!!

The S.A.M. Story Update

Similar to a Hallmark movie I was watching, the authors' reading audience wanted to know if her male character in the romance book was real, as they had fallen in love with him.  I had that same question come up with the S.A.M. Story.

Here are the facts:

The S.A.M. Story was based on a "real" person I met, but the happenings after the initial meeting are fictional.

The actual second, story-based-meeting and experience between us as written about, never came into fruition although it might have been fun to have had that opportunity and see what really would have happened.

Ofttimes made-up stories have better plots and endings because we can dictate the outcome to be how we would like, also forming relational characters to be as someone we "dream of" meeting.  That's the fun part!

Time itself can teach you a lot of things you never knew or were aware of before, about yourselves and others.

It was a fun experience and I learned a lot in writing that story, as I had never written a "short love story" before.  I would try my hand at it again.

I am starting to work on another story:)

You were a GREAT audience!  THANK YOU!

Give, Oh! Give Away

I went to the funeral today of a dear friend who died suddenly and unexpectedly last Sun.  He was just a few months younger than me. Births and weddings and funerals cause me to reflect on life. Not about do babies really come directly from God's home in heaven, or whether marriages can last for eternity, or do we continue to live after death, in heaven, because I know those things are true. 

But to reflect about my life.  About the life I am living.  Am I living a life that will leave the earth a better place for me being here?  Am I practicing what I profess to believe?

If anyone was an example of that, it was my friend.  He showed that the important things in life were not things, but people, and showing love and kindness to them.  He showed it by asking his family each day, "Have I told you yet today that I love you?"  He showed his wife of 30 some years by still treating her as the love of his life.  He showed it to others by helping in any way he could.  He would of helped you if he could have, never even having met you before.  In his eyes, everyone was God's child who deserved and he expected should be treated as such.  And he did just that.

I wrote how devastating my divorce was here and it was he who helped me in an ecclesiastical way to get through it.  Because I was emotionally incoherent at the time, I could not accurately tell you how many times in at least a year, I sought his help and counsel to get me through that period of my life.  Even calling him at his home at all hours, being it early or late.  He not once told me to just get over it, to come back or call later, or that he did not have time right then.  He listened, and he encouraged and he believed.  In me.  He believed in my value and worth as a daughter of God.  And he helped me to believe that, even when there was not even enough self love and self esteem within me to fill a teaspoon. He gave me hope.  He literally helped me stay alive when I no longer wanted to.

He is a modern-day living example of Christ like love.  Something I would like to be tried and convicted of someday.

Thank you Dan.  You are a Good Man!

Here a song his family sang each week which is the life he lived:

“Give,” Said the Little Stream   

                                                                             

“Give,” said the little stream,

“Give, oh! give, give, oh! give.”

“Give,” said the little stream,

As it hurried down the hill;

“I’m small, I know, but wherever I go,

The fields grow greener still.”

Singing, singing all the day,

“Give away, oh! give away.”

Singing, singing all the day,

“Give, oh! give away.”

Words: Fanny J. Crosby, 1820-1915

Music: William B. Bradbury, 1816-1868

Deuteronomy 16:17

 

HOLD ON....If I Could Say Anything It Would Be..HOLD ON

I hope what I am about to say comes off with love and empathy and in NO WAY sounds judgmental as that is the last thing I would want to do.

There have been many times in my life where I have struggled...."just to get through" sometimes each minute......this one (my divorce) was probably one of the most difficult of all....

If I would be able to say anything to others who struggle, it would be to say, Hold On....try to hold on,... and if you have to, hold on to something or someone else positive, until you are able to find hope again.........it was during this time, I learned the difference between sadness vs hopelessness.....I could never have done it on my own......

Although, I would have eliminated that experience if I could have at the time,...that trial literally has been the start of a positive new life course I am grateful Beyond Words to be on today.

http://theunexpectedlife2010.blogspot.com/2010/03/series-1-i-didnt-expect-to-be-divorced.html

If You Have The Faith.....

This morning I was invited to go to the juvenile detention center and share a message with the youth. My companion shared with them a story about having the faith of a mustard seed.

It brought me back to a time in my life when I'm not even sure I had that much (or that little) faith.  
As much as a mustard seed.
But I remember wanting to.
Being desperate for assistance and answers.
Needing to know.
 
It was a time when all I could do was to get through each day, actually some days it was each hour and sometimes literally from minute to minute.
It was a time I felt so alone, and terrified that I couldn't do it.
I couldn't do this "life" thing that I was expected to live.
It was just too much.

So I started to give up.
And I wondered what I was even doing here.
You know, in this life, flailing, when there were others who were eager and way more deserving, losing their heroic battle they were so diligently and honorably fighting.
I felt like a thief- of precious space and air of others- who were way more worthy than me.

Frantically, as a last resort, I utilized what small particle of faith I had, and asked, well, begged for help.
I needed to know that there was a God and that I could and would get help to do this "assignment" given me here on this Earth- to be a mother and raise His children.
To use my heart and gifts in the way He intended me to.

So I prayed for the knowledge that I was not alone, and that I could do this "game of life". 
And it came.
Slowly but consistently.
It came.
And that tiny seed grew until, although I wasn't as stellar as I would have liked, I did it.
With a lot of help! 

And that reckless desire has manifested itself, years down the road, in children I am proud to
have been entrusted with, with a joyous, full mustard-seeded-heart!

"At the point where hope would otherwise become hopelessness, it becomes faith." ~Robert Brault, rbrault.blogspot.com










 

Love Is Like That...

"But I don't understand" she said
"If it was supposed to be this way, we were supposed to be in each other’s lives, then why does it hurt so much?" 

"Because my child love is like that." He said
"Sometimes it fills our hearts with so much joy and warmth; it encompasses our whole being,
 And other times the pain and sadness feel so intense it is as though we will be overcome by it."

"Then why do it at all?"She wondered,” Why even bother to love?"

"Because, my child, without it, we would never use our tears that are necessary to water our heart that it may grow with each experience" He explained
“Tending the garden of our soul, helps us to comprehend and experience in no other way possible, the immense love one can have for another.  It is so that you can know and feel for yourself from within, how My heart feels about You.  So that you, can with compassion and empathy understand and are able to feel what PURE love is."

"Oh" she replied as she wiped away the tears.

"Tears are alright.  They are the price we pay for love, care, and compassion in the world."~ Jeffery R Holland

"It's hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember."

Dear Love.......How Did You Get Here?

It came unsuspectingly as ofttimes love does.
Without notice, or prior arrangement.
In a quiet sort of way, catching us off guard.
I wasn't looking for it, and I'm sure it wasn't looking for me.

Isn't that probably the best kind of love?
One that isn't preplanned, that has no previous expectations, thus no disappointments?
Just what would naturally evolve over time. 
On it's own.
(Sounds like some narrated, Hallmark movie...)

Well, that is how it happened with us.
We just met unexpectedly when co-workers introduced us and it started from there.
I can't speak for them, as for me- that it was love at first sight- but there was sure a curiosity to get to know more.

Each day we found ourselves waiting to be reunited after work.
Almost dependent on one another for our daily interactions, sharing meals, and snuggles.

It didn't take long before all that caring for another turned into compassion, causing hearts to expand with love as we watched and experienced us growing through it.
Each of us looking forward to our meetings, happy to see each other, "making" our day.

From past experience, sometimes, ofttimes, I have been hurt by love leaving when I wasn't ready for it to end.
I knew that this was a good possibility from the start as we were different breeds, but I did not want that to stop me from fully being who I am.
And to not care and share myself and allow another's sweet heart and life into mine just because I wanted to avoid the pain that comes from loss.

And you know what?, that time came...today.
I had to say goodbye to the sweet love that had entered my life and touched my heart just a short while ago.

But I am not sorry, and I would do it again,
Because the joy I had in that short time, and the love that I grew to have and share, renewed and energized my belief in love!;
even knowing in the beginning, that there was a good possibility it wasn't going to last forever.

Dear Love,  
I don't know how you got here, but I'm glad you came, and I hope you visit again soon!
Kitty Foster Momma 

Here are pictures of my latest love who just went to their new home today:

                         





 "For small creatures such as we, the vastness is bearable only through love." ~Carl Sagan
  


 "True love stories never have endings." ~Richard Bach  (Thanks, Bonnie)