from him and her 'inner supporter' encouraged her to revisit the site,
this time with a renewed and anticipatory elation. She
couldn't believe she was actually on her way to see him "in real
life"! Only this time
it was a purposeful meeting for them, not just the meeting of two chance
To say she was teenage-giddy as she drove the quiet, lonely,
country highway to him-that felt a times much shorter than it was
because of the prospect that lay ahead for her-could not begin to
explain what all was going on inside her as her whole being was caught up in it. She sang along jovially, articulating the words loudly to
an old CD full of "fun" love songs she had brought along to set the
mood, heightening the anticipation for the meeting they had so often
discussed through "space".
had conjured up images and scenes of what it would be like to see him
again after half a year of solely cyber communication, not even
remembering exactly what he looked like and wondering if he remembered
her. Had she known her heart was going to encounter him again she may
have been more aware of it all. She may have paid more attention. All
she remembered was his welcoming manner and ease in conversation and
laughter that he brought. Something that stood out for her and she
would later recall with favor.
Still she could not help but wonder if mere words that
had lured them towards each other would be enough to connect them and
keep them together. Would the longing and want still exist without the
safety of spacial detachment?
was "the kiss"-although "non-physical" then, that moved things to a
different level now. It not only advanced things in the essence of
time, but in the desire to bridge space with presence. Physical
presence. Cravings had strongly influenced and dictated this meeting, leaving the expectancy of unknown, unpredictable, uninhibited emotions and actions "out there".