July 30, 2012

Remember The New Male In My Life?

Eighteen months ago I invited or/and allowed a new male into my life.

I wrote about him here. 

Well, we broke up.

Not because we don't love each other (it would be hard to find more unconditional love anywhere),
Not because of age difference (although it is substantial),
Not because we don't get along (we are the best of friends),
Not because of lack of communication (although it has been minimalistic and verbally one-sided for most of our time together),
And not because I don't want to be with him anymore (this is breaking my heart),

But because him and his family had to move out of state.
(For you who did not get the original scoop-he is now an eighteen month old toddler).

I was offered to come along and had I been twenty-years old it could of been the dream-move of a lifetime.

But (FYI) I am a little past twenty and have an established place and other obligations and responsibilities (...and what sounds like excuses) where I am at now.


It was however one of those unexpecteds I started writing this blog about.


* I unexpectedly acquired a complete new family into my family structure.

* I unexpectedly fell in love with someone not of my own flesh and blood as if he were my own.
(I in no way mean any disrespect , but I wondered if maybe just for a tiny glimpse this is what happens to adoptive parents and other family members when they are blessed with a child.)

* I unexpectedly learned even more about parenting (even after raising five children), and child development (even though I have been working with children for over forty-one years), and family dynamics (it was so heart warming to see such a strong and loving marriage unit).

* I unexpectedly have a broken heart.  Not because of I fell out of love but because I fell in love.


* I have unexpectedly been blessed in so many ways from this relationship that I often wonder(ed) why God was being so generous with his love and blessings to me.


* I unexpectedly now have an opportunity to try a new venture.


"Not what we say about our blessings, but how we use them, is the true measure of our thanksgiving."  ~W.T. Purkiser

Let's see what I can do with my blessings!




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